Mistakes

I do realise that there are alot of spelling mistakes in my last post but the reason for that is simple...my nails have got too long and they keep pressing the other letters!!

Bad Blogger

Ok so there it is...another 6 weeks or so since my last blog!! I'm terrible at this!
So what's new with me? Well, i'm back at uni to repeat one of my modules, once i have, i can graduate. It's a European Studies module and I hate it to put it bluntly, but it has to be dome if I ever want to see the back of university life! Saying that though, i'm enjoying haveing routine back in my life. I love September when everything starts kicking off again, school, uni, Church life, cell etc. I may be one of the few people in the world who actually preferes autumn/winter over spring/summer! I love that we are soon going to be wearing our winter woolies and hats and scarves and all the rest of it. It's such a cosy time of the year.

Another exciting thing is that I have been asked to be one of the group leaders for the Alpha course which will be starting in chruch on 6th October *plug*
This is something which I am very excited about, but also extremely nervous about. I am excited to be a part of a great group of people who I will be working along side with for the duration of the 10 week course, I am excited that I may touch someone's life and make God real to them, I'm excited to form new relationships with different people and try to help them as they seek God. This is also why I am nervous. Christians know that there are some questions we just don't have the answers to. I'm nervous about being faced with one of these questions and feeling inadequate. I'm sure everyone who is going to be involved are being faced with the same fears. I'm praying about it though, I know that God will see me through and set aside my fears and replace them with a real passion to bring people close to him. So if you know anyone that you think might benefit from Alpha please give them the time and the date (6th October 7:30pm Emmanuel Church)

I really promise that I will try and be a better blogger from now on!!

Love Love Love

Another year older

Ok so what has it been, 2 months since my last blog?? I keep meaning to write but I always seem to forget! So much has happened in the last couple of months, mainly my trip to Uganda in July, which has to be (without sounding cheesy) the most humbling, thought provoking trip I have ever made.
Alain rang me on Saturday evening asking if I would get up in church on Sunday night and be interviewed about our trip, which i agreed to, even though the thought of getting up to speak infront of that many people scares the pants off me! I did my best but I couldn't help but feel a tad frustrated afterwards because of all the things I had in my head to say I hardly said any of them! I could have talked all night about my experience (my first in Africa) But i barely even touched on the surface. The whole time I was there I was just so aware of God around us. He was in each and every child that touched my hand, He was in the teachers who were so happy to see us there, I have never felt so surrounded.
I really feel so proud and so privilaged to have been a part of the building and I am definately going back..no questions. You really need to be there to understand why I am finding it so hard to describe it. I'm not going to talk a load of waffle trying to, so please come and ask me about it and I will happily chat to you for hours about it!
On another note, it's my 24th birthday tomorrow! Scotty and I are heading up to Portrush to his caravan for the day and we are going to try a apot of body boarding, then head out for a wee bit of dinner in my favourite restaurant...The Ramore Wine bar!!
I will try to blog a bit more frequently from now on...i never stick to any routines in the summer!!
Love love love!!

A little bit of clarity?

I'm sure if you read my last post you will have realised that i have been slightly frustrated with things of late...work being the main thing. Some of you may know that I have been applying to join the police. I got word back last week there that I was unsuccessful yet again. I had completed the Initial Selection test, and the successful candidates go through to the next stage. The pass mark for this test was 52...i got 51. Gutted isn't the word! Although I have been having thoughts that maybe the police isn't for me (I thought this before I heard I hadn't been successful) and so my thoughts turned to jobs that I think I would want to do, a job that I will enjoy, and one that I think I will be good at. I have found myself back at a thought I had when I was a youngster...Beauty Therapy. This is something I have always wanted to do, but then I went to university to do languages so it never entered my head again. Now that I know I don't want a job using languages (what a waste I hear you cry!!) i needed to get my thinking cap on as time is rolling on and I aint getting any younger or richer!! So in October 2009 (good things come to those who wait eh??) I shall be enrolling in the Roberta Mechan College of Beauty and I don't think I have been as excited about anything else! I think I would be good at this job, I think I will really enjoy it and in the future i hope to open my own salon...so for your future spray tan or waxing needs i'm your woman!!
One other thing that has been brought to my attention is a comment Scotty made on a recent blog about marriage being on the cards soon...i'm still waiting for that!! haha (get a move on Scotty!!) xxxxx

Rant...Contentment

Do you ever have one of those days when you just feel like crap but have no real reason to? I'm having one of those days. I don't know why. I feel that this may be a bit of a sour post, but hey, blogging is about truth isn't it? I realise that a few posts ago i was writing about my happiness...how ironic. I find it so wierd how one little thing can bring down your whole mood.
I'm at a point in my life right now where i really have no idea where i'm meant to be, what i'm meant to be doing, or more importantly, where God wants me. I know i don't want to be in retail all my life (i'm in no way knocking those who make their living this way, i'm just saying it's not for me). Pastor Phil was speaking about contentment on Sunday evening, something i feel i need a little bit more of at the minute, not in one particular area of my life, in fact, a little bit in every aspect would be great. Philippians 4 v 11 says, "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances"....Sometimes i wonder to myself, is it possible to ever be completely content with everything in your life? Like i mean EVERYTHING? These are just my own thoughts, stupid as they may seem. This is written in the study part of my Bible under the above verse...

"Are you content in any circumstances you face? Paul knew how to be content whether he had plenty or whether he was in need. The secret was drawing on Christ's power for strength. Do you have great needs, or are you discontented because you do not have what you want? Learn to rely on God's promises and Christ's power to help you be content. If you always want more, ask God to remove that desireand teach you contentment in every circumstance. He will supply all your needs, but in a way that He knows is best for you."

Injections = Nightmare!!!

Last Thursday i went to get the first of my injections for going to Uganda. I was rather nervous as i have a slight (and by slight i mean enormous) fear of needles. So i went into the wee room which was tiny, sat down on the seat and started answering all the necessary questions about my health etc... Then the part I hate...the nurse went over to a wee table and started fiddling around with the needle, getting it out of the wrapper etc (I know its wierd but when this is happening i can't concentrate on anything else!) So over she comes and gives me my first injection in my right arm...my foot is shaking like nothing else and she is jibbering on in my ear about random rubbish as she is trying to distract me! The first injection really wasn't that bad, i was getting another one in my left arm aswell so i thought that if that one was anything like the first one i'd be landed! So in goes the second needle and i feel like a pins and needles sensation in my arm, not really pleasant...then i turn to my mum (who i had with me for moral support!!) and I say that i'm not feeling too well. Next thing i remember i'm lying down on the seats with mum right up at my face with a cold towel trying to bring me around! I fainted! haha Mum later told me that when i started to black out my eyes rolled in my head and my mouth dropped to one side and siezed up then i had a full on siezure! Talk about drama! It took me about an hour to come round and when i got home i slept for the rest of the day! I can sort of laugh about it now but i think i really scared my mum and also the nurse who thought i was having an epileptic fit.
Now i have to get 4 more injections...lets just hope they run a bit more smoothly than the last 2!!

Cell

At Cell Last night we did a wee exercise which was pretty class, it really made me feel quite good about myself and gave me a really good feeling! First of all, let me say that in my every day life, i try my best to be happy. I don't just mean happy on the inside, but happy on the outside aswell...i try to do everything with a smile. It's always such a joy to hear that this happiness has been noticed. Anyway, this exercise lastnight...we all had to take a page and write our names at the top, then pass them round the room and each person had to write something positive about the person whose name was at the top of the page...make sense? Good. Here is what my page said...

1. A rock.
2. Disciple.
3. Friendly, Charming, talented, beautiful smile.
4. Great laugh and easy to get on with. Someone that you're glad to know. Top notch person. Friendly.
5. Easy to get on with and good company.
6. V. Cool! Bring on Uganda 08!!
7. Excellent company - very easy to get on with - friendly personality. Poor taste in men, Scott's a balloon (just kidding) (John Guy!!!)
8. Very cheery! - Cheers everyone up!

Now I don't know about you, but when someone says something nice about you, i can't help but feel a real boost. Here I have a page of 8 things people have said about me and I just feel so happy that people see a joy in me. I don't in any way want to sound like I am being big headed, I just want to out across that me Joy comes from God. Before I was a christian (I have been a Christian again for over a year..lots of crap in between....later post maybe??) I had a real sense of something missing in my life, I was and have always been happy, but I still knew something was missing. When I came back to the Lord, it was literally an overnight change for me, i suddenly had this joy that i hadn't felt in a long time. I know that joy comes from God. There may be hard times and some serious testings in my life, but i still try to live evry day with a smile. My smile was noticed lastnight at cell.